That's right, I'm currently having creativity lack. My friend told me that artistic people can have that and it's nothing to worry about, since you'll get back on the track again. But i just feel useless. I mean i have ideas! Tons of them, actually. But recently my brain has the power to say that those ideas are stupid to draw. That nobody will like them. So why bother draw them?
Also it's difficult when you have a picture in your head and you can't draw it. I've always had that, but it just fustrating. Sometimes, i feel like i'm not that good at drawing, like i might be wasting my time. I know that's not true, since i draw everyday and yes actually i force myself to draw something to make my creativity come back. There's been a lot of failures. Some good drawings but not GREAT.

So recently i just read a lot of books and try to inspire my brain to draw again. That's maybe why i'm so addicted to reading books and finding books about the 18- and 19th century. I find that time interesting. I prefer fictional novels about that time but i love to read some history too. The perfect book to me is when they inculde the history and still manages to make it fictional. Oh, now i'm just rabbling!
Who knows? Maybe if i'm reading more books and analysing more victorian art, i might get my ability to draw something great back again.

My creativity lack is not so much the creativity in my head, but it's more the part where i have to draw it. It's complicated how the mind works, but i love the human mind. It's very fascinating!

Well, I just wanted to write this since I felt that it was nessecary to tell you that i might not be uploading stuff for the time. But not to worry, when my ability gets back, I'll bombard you with stupid drawings!

oh listen to this song: [link] it's beautiful!

Take care!